And oh its these happy good ol' times that keeps me holding on. But how long and how much more can I hold on to before i break?
It is so clear to me, what the outcome is going to be.
And despite what my head is telling me, my heart tells me no.
But I should no better after all I've been through that sometimes, I really shouldn't follow my heart.
At least not when it comes to matters of the heart.
I love you, terribly much and i may not even have tried as much in my previous relationship but i know that we will not have a happy ending.
What is the point then of continuing? (My brain tells me.)
But my heart says: As long as you love him, it will bring you both through. But is really love enough to tide us through this?
I know it isn't but i can't bear to leave. You don't understand how I feel and I feel like a naggy old woman repeating myself all the time, holding your hand and guiding you through this. I want to be taken care of not the other way round.
Sigh.
